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Sunday, January 18, 2009
I don't understand. Why must I be the inferior one? Why am I not up to standard even if I trained double the hard than the others. I take criticism, I take advice, I train on my own, double the hard, whether I'm tired or not , I don't take breaks. But. Why? I really feel like giving up. First. It's my family problems & now it's this. It's all weighing down on me. I really cannot take it anymore. I'm seriously going crazy. As the only guy, I'll have to take care of the family & I still have studies to take care of. So I can receive scholarship & free books. I don't understand. Why am I inferior? I do my best in everything. Am I not talented to play that sport? I play seriously, I hear gossips behind my back about how I play but I pretend you people didn't utter a single thing but I know. I know my previous attitude made you people unhappy, but I've changed. Don't you guys see? Okay, why not I whip up a solution? I quit, so you guys won't feel unhappy about my presence & we won't fight, so in return you lose lesser brain cells. Win-win. (: Dw. I'll go for the competition. After that. You guys don't need to see me. (: Lesser competition & me not in = you all happier? 助人为快乐之本 (: Nevermind. Sure. I won't disgrace you people for having such a player in your team. From the start, I already know that I can't really play well. I just made myself tolerate your criticism in hope of improving myself, but so? Me, being able to serve & spike after so many fucking trys, seems nothing to you guys, but it's like my hard work finally paid off, but all I get back is, "Chey, we can did that ages." & that sarcastic look on your faces. I don't even receive a word of encouragement except for the few, whom I always respected & admired. & I just wanted to try jumpserve. Do you have to pull me down with the sentence, "Don't know how serve don't go try jumpserve." Is it wrong to try? If it is, fine. I don't do it infront of you. It doesn't help me anymore. I'm just always putting an act infront of people. Labels: Tired.
